pengorbanan.....

sepanjang hidop korang la kan....agaknye dah berape byk perngorbanan yg korang buat...tak kire la utk diri sendiri or org lain???emm?me??i lost count..this is not something that i want to show off with you guys...its just that i wanna share my feeling....senang ckp nak lepaskan ape yg aku tgh rase skrung....everything that you do will come with a price kan??tu sbb sume org ckp think before you do something...sbb takot nnt mkn diri.....almost 3 tahun aku hidop merantau...jauh dr rumah n family plus my old friend...byk benda yg aku tak mampu nak buat for them...went their need me....went their alone.....hem...perasaan ni slalu dtg....wanna know what it is....???guilty.....that`s what i feel rite now....perasaan bersalah towards them......mungkin sbb ape yg  dah jd 11 tahun lalu  m`ybbn ku letakkan family in a first place..... ape pon i must be there....tp itu dulu.....sbb tuntutan aku tak mampu nak wat mcm dulu....n yg paling menyedihkan ialah i cant be there at my brother wedding...my only brother....sedih sbb aku tak dpt jln kan tanggungjwb sebagai adeq n anak perempuan yg sulung.....sume tu jatuh kat bahu kat my little sis...poor her....kesian sbb she suppose to have fun...play with her friend....sorry sis...mesti ko penatkan......and about my friend....sbb jauh plus sibuk...entah ape perkembangan diri2 masing kan???dah kahwin ke?clash ke??sometime i will be the last person to know....rase bersalah sbb i cant be good friend for them...name jer best pren tp ape jd kat member pon tak tau.....kadang2 ade jgk rase terpinggir tp its your own fault kan qilah????so tak yah nak blame org laen.....haish.......susah la bile emosi melanda....rase sume benda tak kene...to my family plez know that what ever i do i do coz of allah and you.....to my friend i`m sorry coz i cant be there for you.....n aku tak salah kan korang kalo korang lupekan aku pon....kenchana...heee...coretan ini bkn lah keluhan dgn ape yg jd....NO.....its not what i means.....aku bersyukur sbb aku masih berpeluang utk blajar plus punye peluang kerjaya yg cerah.....just to said that everything needs some sacrifice.... n for me...... for my career i have to sacrifice my time for my family n friends.....